Happy Wednesday Pretties!!
Soooo ..... today I wanted to share a little bit about my life... and the real truth of it is that we, as women, go through so many emotions as we "grow" up. So I turn 35 in a couple weeks and my birthday is always a weird emotional thing for me for some reason. I am not really sure why, am I the only one that gets weird about birthdays??
Anyways, I always judge myself and hold myself to some invisible high standard for no reason. Like.... did I do enough this past year, am I where I "should be" in life, am I skinny enough, or fit enough, or do I need to start worrying about my skin care more, do I please my husband, does he still love me... I don't know.... I put myself through this ring-around-the-rosy of emotions for no reason. Really it's just a backdoor that satan knows he can get to me about just random crap.
So although, it got the best of me on Monday night this week... I am determined to see the things I HAVE done this year instead of what I haven't. For example, I have worked really hard to be at a fitness level I have never been at before and I am pushing myself to new heights in my yoga practice and trying new things that are hard and challenging. I am super happy being a house wife these days and taking care of Matt while he is "finally" working on his dream job. I am blogging here, which makes me happy and I "of course" love to dress up and model clothes!! haha.... sooo..... I am doing my best to remind myself that 35 is a good year, it's a good birthday, I look good and feel good, so I am not going to let anyone ruin it for me this year. I keep telling myself that I am still fat and have tons of weight to lose, etc. etc. etc. You know what I mean..... but no... I am going to put those thoughts out of my head and focus on where I am at.
Can we all strive to be better, do more, etc. sure... but I am trying my best to learn how to give myself grace and just be happy where I am at today! Let tomorrow worry about tomorrow!
If you follow me on insta you saw my post yesterday about letting myself off the hook so to say on the 60 for 60 challenge at my studio. Although, I felt like I was failing at a personal goal I set for myself.... I am also learning that sometimes we have to adjust our goals to an attainable level and that does not mean we failed, in fact it means that we are living in the real world and this is real life!! We shouldn't judge ourselves by other peoples lives or standards. We can only do what we can do and then we just have to trust Jesus with the rest.
So if you are struggling with something in your life that you think you're failing at.... remember that you are only human and sometimes we have to give ourselves a break and a little grace!!!!
So happy birthday month to me.... 35 is going to be my best year ever!!!!!
XoXX - Rachel Eden
**Keep in mind I blog my actual closet so not all items I wear are still available for purchase**
:: Shirt - Banana Republic *no longer available. Similar one Here :: Skirt - Boutique in Fort Worth :: Boots - Vince Camuto from Nordstroms :: Clutch - Louis Vuitton :: Sunnies - Celine :: Earrings - Bauble Bar statement earrings :: Watch - Olivia Burton :: Bracelets - Louis Vuitton & David Yurman & Hermes Clic H ::
:: Foundation - Le Metier De Beaute Anti-Aging Complex *Most awesome thing about this is that it's super light weight and has Retinol in it!! :: Powder - Chanel Natural Finish Loose Powder :: Lips - YSL Liquid Matte Lip Stain in color 23 Singular Taupe :: Eye Liner - Too Faced Sketch Marker Liquid Art Eye Liner *I use this to line my top waterline / lash line so it defines my eye without looking like I am "wearing eye liner". I love it! :: Mascara - YSL The Shock :: Brows - Anastasia Beverly Hills Brow Wiz *color is Medium Brown :: Blush - Too Faced ::